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Not the sort of topic one thinks about very often; kind of random actually. But the idea that I ought to have been or could have been, come around occasionally. Then I think about what kind of turtle I might want to be presents itself. Have you seen the very small, creek dwellers that are soft shelled turtles? They are a bland gray-green, not much bigger that a half dollar coin. The nose is long and flat on the end. It is not an attractive little beastie. I would not want to be one of that tribe. Another sort is the box turtle. This is the one kids find in fields and crossing roads. Sometimes, if a kid is lucky they find an empty turtle shell, preserved by nature. The Native Americans used these to make rattles for dances. It's a nice turtle, not aggressive or bad tempered and makes a good pet. They have the added benefit of not becoming too large and like to hibernate in the winter if it lives outdoors. I don't want to be one of those either. 2020 taught me I would not make a good hibernator. In my younger, angrier, years when most of my life was fueled by fear I would have made a really good snapping turtle. My disposition and defensiveness would have loved having a really long neck to reach around behind me, with my very sharp beak and snap whatever was bugging me! It's kind of a Calbin fantasy, very satisfying! Thankfully, life taught me that anger and fear do not make for a good life. So with lots of working on my brain, I got kinder. Now I feel like I am a big old tortoise. Not unhappy, in fact content most days. I'm solid, strong, no longer given to big emotions or flights of fantasy. Doing the work that needs to be done, making some art, keeping us all fed, and in clean underwear. Seeing to it that our ship stays afloat and no one gets lost. Walking through our days, with as much gratitude and joy as I can muster and always thankful for the blessings of my life now. --donna
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